You were never mine as you never felt the same way about me as I did about you. Still, to this day, you’re the only constant thought on my mind.
From the moment I wake up till the moment I finally fall asleep, you’re the only person I think about day after day. You’re that one lingering idea that won’t leave my head, no matter how hard I try to get it out.
And it would be wonderful if you loved me back even the slightest bit, if you felt at least some level of attraction for me. But to this day, you still remain to be my unrequited love, the one who will never love me back.
Even though I’m used to it and I know very well that your feelings about me will never change, I’m still unable to move on after you. I’m still unable to cross you off and keep living the life I deserve.
Instead, I use my dreams as an escape route from reality and I’m back in your arms every night. I rest my head on your shoulder and as you slowly kiss me on the forehead, I make a prayer that I never wake up from this.
When you can’t stop loving someone who doesn’t love you back, the morning sun feels like your greatest enemy. It wakes you up from the imaginary world you’ve created by yourself, a world where you’re finally happy as the one you care about the most is still a part of your life.
When you can’t stop loving someone who doesn’t love you back, you deprive yourself of the possibility of loving someone else ever again.
You run away from every person who tries to get to know you better and shows any sign of attraction. You hide yourself from them as you don’t want to cheat on the love of your life.
But then it hits you that you’re all alone as the one you’d love to be with doesn’t care about you at all. He probably already has someone else while your heart breaks a little every time you think about him.
When you can’t stop loving someone who doesn’t love you back, it all feels as if you’ll never be able to move on.
You feel pain every time you hear a song that reminds you of him. You stop for a second every time you see someone who looks like him.
It starts to feel like the whole world is against you, as all you keep seeing are reminders of the love that will never be yours.
You keep hurting, day, in day out. You keep asking God to help you move on but then again, you don’t allow yourself to leave him in the past.
No matter how hard you try, you can’t imagine letting go of the only person you truly care about. The only person you genuinely thought would be yours.
You did your best to show him how much you cared about him. You fought and struggled to let that one special guy see how much he meant to you.
And even though he was the only man in your world, you ended up being one of many girls in his. You ended up being a number, just one of those who would never get a chance to be with him.
While you loved him the most, he didn’t feel even one emotion for you. Even though that realization hurts, you would still keep giving him chance after a chance if that meant that you’d be able to talk to him one more time.
You would still set aside your pride if that meant that you could stand across from him and look him directly in the eyes, listen to his soft voice, and hear him talking to you. Even if the words he would tell you would be words of rejection, you would still listen to them as they were coming out of his mouth.
People keep telling you that you must move on. You shouldn’t deprive yourself of happiness because of some guy.
But they don’t realize that ending things with someone who was never yours and never will be isn’t easy. At some point, it can hurt more than an actual break-up.
He never gave you a chance so it all feels like you’re missing out on something huge. It feels like you’re pressured to walk away from the one you love.
It was never your decision to begin with and that’s why you don’t feel like you’re doing the right thing. You feel like you’re betraying your heart and you’re letting it suffer without giving it what it wants.
But then again, you realize that the one you love doesn’t love you back. And that’s when your whole world collapses once again.
When you can’t stop loving someone who doesn’t love you back, it all feels like a sad romantic story. You don’t want to be a part of it, you want it to have a completely different ending, but it looks like nobody cares about your feelings.
The pain is there and it’ll take you years to learn how to heal from it. To be honest, maybe you’ll never be able to fully get over it.
But you keep pushing yourself forward because you know that you must do so. Step by step, you keep walking away from your unrequited love because it’s more than obvious that you won’t ever end up together.
Every move you make feels like you’re breaking your own heart but you keep on walking because it’s the only option you have. It’s the only option that may make you happy one day.
Still, you know very well that their name will always have a special place in your heart. No matter what.