The truth is, I was still broken when I met you. I wasn’t expecting you to show up while I was picking up my broken pieces.
All I was doing was trying to be myself again.
You weren’t what I was expecting while I was trying to love myself and find the right path again.
I had got used to disappointment and pain, and you were a surprise I never saw coming.
It’s easy to get used to pain when it’s all that you know. It becomes normal, even though somewhere deep inside you, you know that it is far from it.
You were a shock to me, and that is the reason why I was afraid. I always expected to get hurt, but finding someone who would try to make me happy was something I had never dreamed about.
It was an amazing feeling, and something I had never felt before.
You reassured me and calmed my fears and anxieties like it was something you came into my life to do.
I had never met such an honest and open man before, who didn’t make me struggle to figure out what the mixed signals were all about.
For the first time in my life, someone else was making as much effort as I was, and I felt my love was truly reciprocated.
You didn’t care about our physical bond as much as you did about our emotional one, and it was something I had never experienced before.
I ended up standing in awe because I didn’t think something like that was possible.
All my life, I had been convinced that men like you were just a part of a fairy tale and not real life.
But you proved me wrong.
You made me feel like I was dreaming a dream I never wanted to wake up from.
Still, my fears would wake me up because I was so scared of losing you.
For the first time ever, I had found something real and genuine, and I didn’t want to lose it.
The thought of losing you would terrify me. How could I let myself lose someone who really knew what true love was all about?
Someone who knew to love in the purest and most genuine way…
Our relationship moved forward quickly because it wasn’t hard for you to let me into your life and into your heart.
It was easy for you to love me because you knew how to love.
Still, my heart was broken.
It caused me to try to slow things down. I was afraid that a love that could burn so brightly could easily burn out even faster.
The truth is, I was afraid that you’d turn out to be just like my ex. The doubts I had about our relationship weren’t your fault, but I still had them.
So, I tried to walk away from you, but you pulled me back and told me to stay.
I didn’t want to hide anything from you, so I told you all about me… even the things I shouldn’t have said.
You heard all the stories of my life, from the happiest ones to the most painful ones.
I wanted you to love me for who I am.
I wanted you to accept me with all the parts of me… even the worst ones.
It was hard for me to let go of all the pain from my past… and I wanted you to understand it so that you could understand me.
I just wanted you to love me for who I am so that I could give you my heart, or what was left of it.
My past was so awful that it prevented me from enjoying the present.
I carried a great pain in me, and once it mixed with all the happiness you brought, it left me confused.
After all the words I had to tell you, I was speechless, and I suddenly felt like all my anxieties and fears were completely normal.
You made me feel safe in your arms because you held me so long and hugged me so hard.
That is what I had needed all that time.
I wanted someone to understand me and accept me for who I am. All I ever dreamed of was someone whom I could be myself around.
Still, you shouldn’t ever think that someone else left a void inside me that you had to fill.
I think of you as my destiny, and as an angel that was sent from the heavens to stand by me and give me the strength to fill that hole.
The only person who was able to fix me was me, but I needed you to believe that I could do it.
I had a lot of healing to do, and finally, I was able to smile again.
Thanks to you.
I had so many insecurities, but you helped me fight them, and I was even able to resolve the trust issues I had.
The truth is, I didn’t trust you. I couldn’t believe that you truly loved me and I had to doubt everything you showed me… even though you showed me nothing but love.
I hope that you can understand that I had to find myself before I realized you had been creating a beautiful love story for us this whole time.
Meeting a nice man after getting your heart broken isn’t easy.
It’s hard to believe that he is really who he says he is. But your actions spoke louder than your words, and I finally know that I am loved.
Thank you for loving my broken heart, and I am finally ready to give you my whole heart.
It was hard for me to believe that men like you exist. Now I know, and I am finally loved for who I am.
I know that it was hard for you to deal with all my insecurities, but they are gone now. Let me tell you something, as honestly as I told you everything else.
I am yours. Forever.