The Truth Is, I’m Beyond Done Waiting For You Even If I Still Love You

The worst part of life is waiting. Waiting for the one you love. But I’m beyond done waiting for you – even if I still love you.

I can’t wait around for you anymore. And when I try to say it out loud, it feels more like a lie than the truth. It feels that way because I’ve waited for you for quite a while.

Even though we were never serious about each other and we actually never dated, you made me feel like I’ve been in love with you my entire life.

I truly believe that you’re the one for one, my happily ever after. The man who’ll prove to me why it didn’t work with my exes.

People may come and go in life, but for once I felt like you’re my future. You’re the only one I could picture my life with.

And when I see an old couple holding hands on the street – those sweet old couples – I picture us growing old together like that.

That’s how powerful my love for you is.

All the same, I know I shouldn’t love you. We’re like fire and water, two worlds apart.

My friends warned me about you. They said that I should move on with my life. That I shouldn’t wait for you because you’ll only crush my hopes.

But even they know that some things are easier said than done.

Even if I know that I should listen to my mind and not my heart, I can’t ignore the feelings that I have for you.

No one’s made me feel like you have. Nobody understands my emotions when I admit to them that I’m madly in love with you.

The truth is, I don’t even understand any of this myself. I’ve forgotten how love actually works and why I’m so in love with you.

Maybe I’m a bit naive for feeling this way. Maybe I’m acting like a high school kid who has their first big crush.

And maybe I’m stupid and crazy, but I do know what my heart wants and that’s YOU.

It’s just that I feel most comfortable when I’m with you. I don’t have to pretend to be someone else.

I can show you my true self and you embrace me with no judgment. I know you’re my safe haven and I’m yours.

You were there for me when I needed you. You always had my back no matter what.

I completely trust you with all my heart and I know I can count on you.

For once in my life, I do believe that opposites attract and you proved that to be true. You’re the complete opposite of me and I’m still head over heels for you.

I know that my heart has chosen. But I also know that it’s difficult to forget someone who’s played an important role in your life.

I know I can’t do much about it. People often end up listening to their hearts and not their minds.

Love is a strange thing. It happens quickly and has the power to instantly paralyze you.

Your whole world turns upside down and suddenly you don’t know where you are. That’s how you make me feel.

And to be completely honest, I’m not even trying to truly let go of you. I love you too much. And I feel that you love me too.

I know that you want more from us and that you hope we will get to the next level.

But it’s like you’re not ready to take the next step.

I’m not sure, but perhaps you’re afraid to mess things up and to destroy what we have right now. And I get that.

Know this: I’m not going anywhere!

But I’m beyond done waiting for you. I’m not waiting for something to happen.

Actually, I’m not even sure anything is going to happen anytime soon.

There are so many questions unanswered and I can’t put my life on an indefinite pause for you.

I can’t live with this uncertainty anymore. I won’t sacrifice living for you.

Love is great and amazing, but it’s also something that can destroy you mentally and physically if it’s not nurtured.

My hopes are up and I believe that one day my dreams will come true.

I believe with all my heart that in the end you’ll call me yours and I’ll call you mine.

But I’m so done waiting for that to happen!

We have to address the elephant in the room because I can’t bear this anymore.

You treat me like I’m your girl, like everything is fine and normal when it’s not.

You expect me to let you in when it’s you who puts up all those walls around yourself.

You’re not brave enough to say what you truly feel about me. That’s why I’m done begging for your attention!

You can go to the other girls and try to make it work with them. Don’t worry, I won’t stop supporting you.

Even though I’ll hurt seeing you with them, I’ll not give you that satisfaction of seeing me broken.

I’ll be there to pick up the broken pieces, but don’t expect me to put a hold on my life for you. I won’t do it, no matter how much I love you.

I’m beyond done waiting for you while my life flashes before my eyes.

I won’t wait for you to one day finally grab me and say how you only love me and no one else.

That said, I’ll always hope that you’ll gather enough courage to honestly tell me how you feel about me. I’ll never lose hope of us being together.

I’ll always have plans for our future together.

I’m looking forward to the moment you come to the realization that we’re meant to be together forever.

I’m just not putting my life on hold anymore!

I’ll be here if you want me. I won’t even try to run away. And I’ll always love you. But I won’t be here forever.

So what are you waiting for?