You’ve been daydreaming about love ever since you can remember.
There’s nothing that makes you look forward to the future like the thought that one day, someone will love you the way you deserve to be loved.
That’s exactly what you wanted to experience with him.
You’re looking at him and you feel tears silently choking you.
You’re stronger than that so you won’t give in to the urge to sob right in front of him.
You would never let yourself fall victim to these emotions that have nothing to do with him, as they’re all yours.
He’s everything you ever wanted for yourself, but he’s not yours to keep. He belongs to someone else and that’s what hurts the most.
The closest you ever come to having him is in your dreams, when you lose yourself in imagining he is yours and you are his.
Those dreams of yours are quite dangerous because you end up breaking into pieces when reality hits you. It’s the strongest pain you’ve ever experienced.
You turn to the other side of the bed and you just know that he would fit there perfectly.
You walk around town, and you just know that it would be easier if you were holding his hand.
But he can’t know that.
Your heart is breaking at the hands of a man who doesn’t even know the value he holds.
You have realized firsthand that love is tragic just as much as it’s beautiful.
There’s nothing stronger than the love and the pain that mingle in the back of your ribcage whenever you think of him.
Sometimes, it’s easy to forget that reality exists. It’s easy to believe that one day, things will change and that he will be yours.
Loving someone who can never be yours is like you’re always standing at the edge of sanity.
You want to believe that one of these days, your lips will meet his, but you know better.
You can’t let yourself dwell on these dreams because you know that it’s dangerous territory.
Your poor heart can’t handle that much agony.
You know you can love him just the way he deserves to be loved. Tenderly, gently, but still with your entire being.
There is such a thing as loving someone for the rest of your life even though you’re not together.
You love them from a distance and they will never know.
I really do believe that there are soulmates out there who will never meet or touch, or even if you do meet them, it doesn’t mean you’ll be with them.
Someone who doesn’t experience unrequited love will never understand how you feel.
Someone who holds the person they love the most will never know what you’re going through.
This is just more proof that love isn’t always enough.
It’s unfair. Love should be enough to bring two people together, it should be enough to stay together and always fight for each other.
These feelings should be enough, but they’re not.
There is such a thing as the right love at the wrong time. It’s reality for many people who don’t know whether they’re ever going to be loved by someone this much.
Loving someone who can never be yours is like selling him a little piece of your heart and when he leaves, that piece of you leaves as well.
You’re left alone to wonder why things aren’t simple. Isn’t love supposed to be easy?
You’re supposed to be happy for the rest of your days and with the man of your dreams.
Now he’s just a man from your dreams and it will never be true.
So, now you’re walking around with that constant ache in your chest. It doesn’t seem to subdue even when you’re genuinely happy.
That little part of your heart that he took with him has left a hole in your chest.
It isn’t a severe wound, but it keeps reminding you that you will never be yourself again.
There is a part of your past that you can’t let go of, no matter how hard you try. And you have tried.
You tried to forget him, you tried to replace his absence with someone else, and you’ve been busy.
There hasn’t been a moment when you didn’t try to relieve the pain you feel!
But it’s not going away. The pain is etched into your heart and it feels like it will never be healed.
What happens is that you learn to live with the pain.
You learn how to live without a part of yourself. You learn that there is no point fighting it anymore.
There’s no way you will be with him and loving someone who can never be yours isn’t a choice anymore.
You know that your love for him will always be like a little fire, not strong enough to burn you, but enough to hurt you.
It’s true that you might never get over him. The love you feel for him will accompany you through your happiest and saddest moments.
You will love again. Of course, you won’t love anyone like you loved him but your heart will be able to feel that spark for someone else.
Even when you hug another man that you’re able to have feelings for, there will always be a nagging feeling at the back of your mind.
Even when you grow old and your heart shrivels together with your skin, it’ll still be there.
You’ll look at your past and you’ll remember the man that you loved so dearly.
You’ll remember that there was once someone for whom you would have done anything.
Those memories will make you smile sourly and your eyes will tear up. That’s when you’ll realize that you never stopped loving him.
Not even for a second.