You would hold me in your arms and make me feel safe, but just as soon, you’d let me go. My head says to forget you but my heart says it can’t as soon as you hold me once again…
And you’d always play with me like that. As soon as I’d feel safe, you’d let me fall and turn your back on me, but just as I’d let go of you, you’d make my heart beat for you again.
It made me feel like I was just a toy an immature boy gets to play with whenever he wants. Sometimes, you’d play nicely and treat me with care but then you’d toss me aside and forget about me like I was worthless.
I didn’t make it easy for anyone to get close to me and get to have my heart… But you walked into my life like it belonged to you and it made me weak in the knees.
All my walls would tumble down as soon as our eyes met. It was like there was something so deep in the look you’d give me that you could read my soul’s deepest desires.
It was unbelievable how quickly I fell in love with you without even realizing what was going on. You’d just hold me in your arms and I’d feel like it was the only place I belonged.
I felt happy and at ease thinking that I could stay there forever… But you wouldn’t let me.
Now, my head says to forget you but my heart says it can’t because it still beats for you.
I shouldn’t have let you in to begin with and now I’m suffering the consequences.
Once you showed your true face, I realized that I didn’t even know you.
I thought that you were some kind of mystery I needed to decipher, but there was no mystery really.
You’re just so spoiled that you think you can have anything you want.
You think that you’re entitled and that you deserve the best treatment while treating others like they’re worthless.
You’d always hurt me like no one else was able to, and just act like nothing happened afterward.
Being with you felt like dancing with the best dancer in the world, but then you’d just push me away.
I’d fall but something would still pull me to you, just like something would pull you back to me.
I thought that that was love and the only reason we had anything in the first place… but it wasn’t love that was pulling us closer together, it was your need to toy with me.
You’d promise me that things would be different and that you’d change.
Eventually, you’d fight those demons inside of you, and all your problems would be fixed so we could be happy together, right?
I honestly believed that my love could change you but no amount of love was ever enough. No matter how much love I showed you, it would just bring me incredible pain.
My love could never change you and I have to accept that. No matter how hard I try though, my head says to forget you but my heart says it can’t.
Even though I know I’m just fooling myself, I still hope that you’ll change one day.
Somehow, I know that you never will but I still see you as much more than you truly are.
I see the man I loved with all of my heart, both the good and the bad. No matter what you did, I’d always welcome you back into my embrace.
Whenever that would happen, things would seem great for a short while.
Soon after, though, they’d get even worse than before and every time afterward was even worse than the time before.
It’s like you thought that I was giving you permission to treat me even worse every time I’d welcome you back.
In a way, maybe that’s what I was doing since I should have walked away the first time you hurt me.
The chemistry we had just got into my head and made me crazy about you.
That’s why my head says to forget you but my heart says it can’t and never will.
You knew how to get under my skin and I felt electricity every time you’d touch me.
We were obsessed with one another and it made us act like there was no tomorrow.
There was just you and me and our incredible passion for each other that made my heart skip a beat when you’d look at me.
Even now that I know that we’re never going to have true love, I still miss your touch.
I miss the way you used to kiss me as if it was the first and the last time two people kiss.
Your kiss was precious to me but it wasn’t enough and I knew that it never would be. I needed more; I needed you…
What I needed was your heart and soul and all the love you had to give. Just that special glow in your eye when you’d look at me could never be enough.
Because of it, my head says to forget you but my heart says it can’t…
Your eyes make it beat faster and I feel like it will jump out of my chest just to give itself to you.
I know that you’re not good for me so this is me picking up my pieces and letting go.
You just took me for granted until you finally stopped coming back.
I still waited and hoped but I was also relieved and knew that you shouldn’t come back.
Thank you for leaving me because I wasn’t capable of walking away.
No matter how much you hurt me, I’d still look forward to seeing those eyes again. What truly hides behind them will now have to stay a mystery to me.
You used to make me feel worthless and I can’t allow anyone to make me feel that way again.
My head says to forget you but my heart says it can’t…
Its broken pieces will remember you but that’s all you’ll ever be now – a painful memory of the man I used to love.