In toxic love is normal to lose yourself, to abandon yourself, because you just want to keep the relathionship. It happens very often, you are not the only one who is going through it. But remember everything will be ok, you will be ok. That feeling won’t last forever.
I know that life you had before isn’t there, life which one you had with you ex isn’t there too. You have to put in order your life. It won’t be easy, but you will do it.
First of all, stop trying to understand why did they do that to you. Stop asking yourself why. Because they did it, and that’s it. You can’t do anything about it.
If you keep asking yourself you will never win, beacuse you are just wasting all you energy. Deal with it. I know it’s hard, but you can do it.
The pain when you ex betrayed you will always be there, but in time, you will realize how to deal with it. After certain time, that pain won’t be pain, it won’t hurt, it just will be a lesson. You can do it.
You need learn to let go. You need to let go your pain, your thoughts, everything, you need to move forward. I know it’s hard to let go one thing which your ex leave to you, pain, but you need to. He didn’t deserve it. I know that you can do it.
Probably one of the hardest thing to do is forgive. Forgive him everything, he didn’t deserve that, but forgive. You are better than him. Yes, you are, so just forgive. And one remark, you need to forgive, but you can’t forget what he did to you. And you just live with it. It will be ok. You can do it.
Fell in love with yourself again. Love yourself, put you on the first place. You are the most important.
And don’ regret anything. Mistakes are inevitable in a life worth living. As long as you learn from them, mistakes are very important.
You cried, you laughed, you were alive, and that changed your life.
You did it, and you thought you could not.