I’m No Longer Apologizing For My Emotions

There was a time when expressing your emotions wasn’t seen as a sign of being weak. So, when did that change, and why?

I’m no longer apologizing for my emotions as they’re part of who I am. I’m only being myself and showing that I’m a human being who knows what pain and love are and I’m not comfortable hiding those emotions just so men would like me.

Hiding my emotions, as something that the person I’m with deems inappropriate, has become very tiresome and toxic for my soul and body. I’m sick and tired of guys constantly telling me that I have to loosen up and keep it chill.

They think that openly showing your emotions is a girly thing that every man should avoid. I’m completely fine with men not expressing their emotions so easily and even if they do decide to show them, it’s so much less than what I actually need.

The truth is I want to become one with you. I want to be able to share softness and kindness with you.

I want to scream from the top of my lungs that I’m so happy that you’re part of my life. Also, I want to honestly tell you how much I love you and how much I need you.

If you’re sick or tired, I want to be there for you, to take care of you. I want to make you hot soup and cuddle so you get better soon and I expect you to do the same for me.

My head is filled with many thoughts and I want to be able to share them with you without being afraid that you may judge me.

I want to show you when I’m angry but I don’t need you to walk away from me in those moments of despair and anger. I need a man who’ll be there, to talk to me and understand my pain.

And if you’re the right one for me, then you’ll gladly accept those quirks of mine. You should accept everything that makes me a human being – my anger, nervousness, love, and pain.

You should be completely fine when I decide to watch the movie Titanic for the hundredth time and cry all over again.

Sometimes I do get emotional but that should be okay with you. I need a man who’ll do that for me, who’ll accept me and my emotions, as they’re a part of me.

The truth is that I feel things differently. I’m a bit more emotional than the rest of the girls you previously met in your life.

However, that should be a bonus to you because I’ll appreciate you even more and the things that you do for me. Those emotional parts of me helped me become the woman that I am today and I won’t hide them.

The only option for you is to accept them. I won’t be afraid of expressing any of my emotions, even if I don’t think you’ll like them.

I’m no longer apologizing for my emotions.

We both know that love brings both happiness and pain. Unlike others, I’m not sorry that I’m falling in love or that I’m scared.

I’m completely fine with those emotions. Are you?

I’m no longer putting up walls around me that will keep me from showing you my feelings. I’ve done that and other people thought that I was cold or brave for doing it but they didn’t know the truth.

Putting on a brave face just so someone would love you should never an option but that’s something that I’m not willing to do anymore. I’m done with keeping my emotions inside me.

It’s true that I may go overboard and that I may overreact over certain things but that’s just who I am. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Feeling and expressing your emotions will set you free. You’ll instantly feel more alive if you do it and the deeper those emotions get, the more alive you’ll feel.

On the other hand, if you decide to reject your emotions and sweep them under the rug, you’ll become numb and cold toward others.

I’m not adapting to anyone anymore. I’m not hiding and forgetting who I am just so the other person accepts me in their life.

Putting on a mask and pretending that I don’t have feelings will only push us further apart. Eventually, your emotions will become insignificant to me and I’ll start feeling indifferent toward you and I don’t want to feel that way about you.

If you’re uncomfortable with me showing you my feelings, then I’m sorry for saying this but you don’t deserve to be in my life whatsoever.

I’ve had many heartbreaks before. I tried to suppress my feelings so I could move on with my life and I had to work hard to get myself back together.

However, I’m not doing that anymore. I’m not choosing to be that old me who always carried the burden of not showing anyone my feelings.

I have a big heart and I’m tired of apologizing for being emotional. Truth be told, being emotional empowers me.

I’m not letting you take that from me just because you’re unable to see my worth. I’ll never let you decrease my value.

Don’t ever tell me to stop crying or to calm down. I won’t be that type of girl who suppresses her feelings just so her man won’t leave her.

You have to accept all the womanhood that is inside me. Don’t try to change me because it won’t work.

I know that once you see my emotional side, you’ll open up to me too. You’ll see how liberating it is knowing that no one will judge you for your feelings.

That’s why I’m no longer apologizing for my emotions. My strength, love, and wholeness are expressed through them.

I want a man who won’t back off once he sees my emotional side. I don’t want to have those shallow or superficial relationships any longer; I’m done with them.

I’ll give you my all and I expect that you do the same!