You know that I’m a ride or die woman. When I love, I love to the fullest and I give my whole self to the person standing in front of me.
I know that love requires sacrifice and commitment, and I’m not afraid to give either. I’m not afraid to give you my heart when I fall for you.
I know that if you’re the one, you’ll make sure to keep it protected and take care of it, maybe even better than I would.
Can you guess from my words that I either love you truly or I don’t feel anything for you?
There’s nothing in-between because I don’t want you to fall for me if I’m not ready to fall for you.
I know how much it hurts to look at someone as the best thing in the world while they don’t see anything good in you.
So the second I decided to run away from you, I wanted you to know that it was your fault.
It was you and your childish behavior that made me leave even though I gave my everything to you.
Why? Because you couldn’t love me the same way I loved you.
Your heart simply wasn’t capable of giving me the amount of love that mine was ready to give you.
And that would have been fine if you had known how to appreciate me.
If you had only known how to treat me the right way, I would still be right there next to you.
But instead, you were not grateful for anything I gave you; for love, kindness, or the feeling of security I wanted you to feel.
You never respected me as a person. I was there, right next to you, but most of the time, I felt invisible.
It looked like you were taking more care of others who couldn’t care less about you while you ignored the one who would die for you.
You took me for granted and you thought that I was supposed to treat you well, while you made no effort to give me anything in return.
And it all became too much to handle.
I know that I said that love requires sacrifice but was I the only one who was supposed to fight for us?
Was it normal that you led your own life while I took care of the one we shared together?
Even though I did everything for you, you still made no effort to tell me that you saw that. It was never enough.
I could have moved mountains for you and you would have told me that you expected more from me. That’s how you treated me.
I couldn’t take it anymore. I craved one little sign of love from you, but you always failed to make my wishes come true.
If I ran away from you and completely removed you from my life, be aware that it was your fault.
It was your toxic behavior that kept pushing me away from you and at one point, I fell over the edge.
I could have given my whole self to climb back to you or I could have moved on with my life and looked for love and happiness somewhere else.
You already know which I chose.
I chose a life where no one would bring me down anymore.
A life where I’d be the main character of the story and where I wouldn’t have to chase after people any longer.
I know what I want from life and I can’t let myself be with someone who has no plans.
I can’t be with someone who changes his mind every few minutes.
How could I know that at some point, he wouldn’t erase me from his future plans?
How could I know that his feelings were real and that he was with me for the long run?
No one could guarantee me that, not even him.
And I would have been fine with that if he had ever made an effort to show me that he actually cared about me.
If he had ever shown me that he loved me by holding me in his arms when I was falling apart.
That’s why I chose to run away – because he made me do it. He brought me to my breaking point and I couldn’t take it anymore.
I could have chosen between a life spent in endless pain or a life where I’d be the main player.
I chose the latter.
Thank goodness, as I saved myself from your burden. I’m free and I’ve learned to love myself more than you ever could.
But I want to tell you something. Let this be your lesson for the future.
If you keep treating women the same way you treated me, you’ll end up alone.
You’ll go to bed and wake up with no one by your side because you were afraid to give your heart to someone.
That way, you even risk losing the right one because she might run away from you the same way I did.
She might think that you don’t deserve her love the same way I did.
So, if you want to find your true love, the one who’ll fight for you her whole life, change your behavior.
If you fail to do that, don’t complain that God never sent you the right one.
He probably did, but you pushed her away with your actions.
That’s why I’ll once again repeat these words and I hope that they’ll be stuck in your head.
If I ran away from you, be aware that it was your fault.
You made me take the last step that was on my list of actions.
The first two were to love you and to cherish you but since that wasn’t enough, I had to do something else.
If I had stayed, you would have destroyed me and turned me into a powerless woman. And I would have hated myself for accepting to be that.
Take care of yourself and hopefully, one day, you’ll see the mistakes you’re making and you’ll be willing to work on them.