You had me in the palm of your hand. I thought it was me and you against the world, but I guess I was wrong.
I really thought that we were on the same page. And how could I not think that way when everything you ever said pointed toward us spending the rest of our lives together?
I remember telling you countless times that I was sure about you. That you were my future and I was yours. I was there to spend my life with you. I was ready to surrender my heart to you, but now you lost me forever.
The funny thing is, you felt the same way. That’s why the sudden change in your behavior came as a shock to me.
But I learned that I’m totally unlike you. I have a pure and sincere heart – I don’t have time to hate people or manipulate them as you do. I really meant every word that I said, unlike you who had me thinking that we were for a lifetime.
You told me that all you ever wanted in your life was me and no one else. And every time I heard that, I believed you and let my guard down so you could be closer to me.
But everything changed overnight – you changed and so did your emotions for me.
You losing me didn’t happen immediately. You lost me bit by bit. Those little mistakes that you made were just the tip of the iceberg.
They accumulated over time. Eventually, it was those million mistakes that pushed me away from you.
You disappointed me over and over again. I really thought that I could surrender my heart to you, but now you lost me for good.
I guess I have to confess that I truly adored you and would’ve done anything for you.
But I would never beg for love. I never wanted a man who I had to beg for appreciation and respect.
I was tired of those boys who made me seek their attention.
But I thought you were different.
Even though I was with you, I still felt alone at the same time.
It was the lies that drove me away from you when all I gave you was the truth and nothing else.
You fed me with half-truths and false promises that we were going to be together for the rest of our lives.
But you can only believe a man to a certain moment. And I reached my breaking point.
I could no longer hear any of it. I knew that everything you said to me was a plain lie.
And despite me wanting to surrender my heart to you, you lost me with your words.
Instead of looking at us as a team, you prioritized yourself and no one else. I felt left out.
My needs were never fulfilled and my heart was left there so you could walk all over it.
I’m not doing that to myself anymore.
You used me before. I wanted you to change for the better so we could live happily ever after.
So that I could chase my dreams and goals with you by my side.
You lost me when I couldn’t recognize the man I once knew. The man who cared about me and cherished me for who I am.
That sweet man who held me tight when my eyes were brimming with tears.
Who knew how to make me smile and who I was genuinely happy with.
But you’ve changed for the worse!
You stopped coming over, preferring to spend your time with the boys. I couldn’t wait any longer for you to reply to my calls and messages.
You canceled plans with me whenever something better turned up. You were only there when it suited you.
And now you lost me forever!
You lost me because you made me think that I was the cause of your problems.
You manipulated me into thinking that everything bad that happened to you was because of my actions.
I didn’t realize then it was all your imagination.
You said that I wasn’t supportive enough of your dreams and goals, but it was actually the other way around.
Your claims were unfounded even though I admitted to you and to everyone else that I wasn’t a perfect girlfriend.
At least I know I tried to do what was best for our relationship.
And all of your apologies are now in vain. Saying that you’re sorry for your actions and words mean nothing to me now.
I remember those “I’m sorry” moments. You would often say those words and then go back to repeating the same mistake over and over again.
You always knew how to sweeten the pill. But your attempts to soothe me started to lose their potency.
I started seeing right through them. Your words became meaningless.
And you lost me because you never valued me. You thought that my kind heart was weak.
You took me for granted and mistook my humbleness and down-to-earth attitude for weakness.
But I was the one always trying to see things from your point of view before making any decisions.
I made an effort for us to succeed – you just didn’t recognize it.
I was prepared to surrender my heart to you, but now you lost me forever.
You lost me because you treated me as your second option. You knew that I loved you with all my heart and took advantage of that.
So you figured that you could come and go as you please and I’d stay right there where you left me.
You thought that I’d always forgive you no matter what you did, that I would always take you back because I was ready to surrender my heart for you.
I’m not doing that to myself ever again!
I reached my breaking point. At that moment, I knew I’d had enough of your manipulation. Enough of your lip service.
I knew that if I kept forgiving you, I’d be digging my own grave. I’d be settling for a life filled with misery and unfulfillment.
So, I chose myself for once – and let me tell you, it feels great! I choose to be happy on my own rather than let you make me unhappy.
That’s why I’m putting a period on this chapter of my life. I can’t wait for you to change anymore.
I can’t be the only one in the relationship who pulls their weight and forgives more.
Even though I was ready to surrender my heart to you, now you lost me forever and you have nobody to blame but yourself!