Has anyone ever told you that they wish for you to be loved like you deserve to be?
That sounds like such a beautiful wish, but when you think about it, you have to ask yourself: Is it? Does everyone deserve a love story straight out of a fairytale?
I don’t know if you’re catching my drift when I say this. You probably think that it’s the kindest thing ever, but I know that I didn’t mean it like that. And I hope the universe also sees it for what it truly is.
You never knew how to love someone properly. I mean, you didn’t know how to love me with the intensity I used to love you. You didn’t even try to give me the time of day.
When I think of you, even to this day, something in me breaks into a thousand pieces. You create a feeling of hopelessness inside me and it keeps making a wreck of me.
Can you even imagine what you did to me?
I believe that you never once took a moment to ask yourself what awful things you did to me. But I also know that you don’t even believe you ever did anything wrong.
What about that time you told me that I should be happy to be this pretty? Confusion overtook me, but then you elaborated what you meant. You said that I should be happy with my looks because I have nothing else going for myself.
Can you imagine having the person you love the most say such a nasty thing about you?
And what about the time you told me that you’d pick me up, just for me to sit around and wait for you for hours? You didn’t think that showing up on time (or at all) was that important. You knew I’d wait for you no matter what. That’s exactly why my heart was shattered when you’d behave like that towards me.
My love for you was unconditional. Obviously.
I always found a way to love you through all the troubles. There was always something good about you – from the way you smiled at me, to how you made me feel safe in your arms.
It was so easy to impress me. You didn’t have to do much.
You took that literally, so you didn’t do anything in our relationship. You’d never let me finish when I was talking, or even bother to listen to what I had to say. My opinion on things didn’t matter to you.
You never took me seriously. And the biggest issue is that I didn’t realize it until it was too late.
I knew you were bad for me, but I couldn’t let you go. I wanted to see if you could change and how long it would take you to realize I was miserable. You could’ve told me that you’d change and I would’ve believed you.
All I wanted is for you to tell me it wasn’t my fault and that I never asked for that behavior. I wanted you to show me the love I deserved. After everything I did for you, that’s the least you should’ve given me.
So I realized the awful things you did to me and that you weren’t going to change any time soon. When I broke up with you, I told you, “I wish you the love that you deserve.”
That’s the sweetest wish, and yet could also be the worst curse.
It’s a curse for men like you. Because you deserve to be loved as you love.
You deserve to find someone who will never be there for you, someone who will teach you how awful you are and show you that love can hurt you just as much as it hurt the people around you.
You deserve to find someone who only sees you as a punching bag. You’ll be obsessed with the woman who comes into your life after me. You’ll want her more than you ever did anyone.
Good luck convincing her to treat you right.
Because I sent a plea out into the universe. It’ll listen because I went through hell and back because of you.
You’ll feel the pain I felt when I tried to call you and you simply didn’t care enough to reply. So when you try to call her yet she doesn’t care enough to answer, that’ll be the moment you remember me. You’ll wish that she acts the way I did when we were together.
But she never will. That curse will always remind you of the love you deserve because of the awful things you did to me.
That’s exactly why I believe that I’ll be loved the way I deserve to. There will be a man who’ll do everything in his power to show me that love doesn’t have to hurt. He’ll be there for me, call me, and never let me wait.
He won’t even need a reminder. He’ll just know how to pamper me and show me he cares.
You never knew how to do that, so you’ll get what you deserve.
And considering all the things I did to make you happy, the universe will grant me happiness. Hopefully. I truly do believe that good things come to the people who deserve them the most.
But you’re not one of those people and I’m sorry. You should’ve known it would end this way. You should’ve known that karma would get you one way or another.
So this is it.
I wish you the love you deserve. A love that will break you as much as yours broke me.
I wish you the love you always gave me – love that was so toxic, I could feel myself disappearing. I became increasingly depressed when I was with you.
But I’ll be fine. I’ll be okay.
You’ll be the one who’ll be broken and bruised one day when the love you truly deserve comes your way. When it all happens to you, you’ll know how awful it feels. It’ll be real.
The man who once broke me into pieces, the man I had to escape from, will finally get what he truly deserves.