Those who go away usually come back. In a month, or a year or two.
They get a feeling that now is the right time and that we should try to make things work, once again.
Naive me always took them back with a smile on my face.
I thought that everyone deserved to get another chance, so I showered them with my second chances whenever they asked.
As time passed, I started to feel emotionally drained. One after another, they came back and left again.
‘‘I’m sorry but I feel that the timing is off.” ‘‘Maybe we could try again later when both of us feel more ready to commit.”
‘‘I need some space. I will call you when I’ve reconsidered my thoughts.”
Piece by piece, their words stacked up, and instead of having a collection of quotes in my head, I had a collection of excuses.
When I broke up with my last boyfriend, I was chatting to my friend and she said the following words to me:
”Don’t stress about it too much. You know he will come back to you. He always does.”
I shut her out and thought about her words. She was right – he would come back and deep down, I knew that. But was that really what I wanted from him?
Is it really what I want from anyone in my life? Do I want people who will come and go as they want, leaving me heartbroken for months?
Could I take another departure when I know how those before made me feel?
Do I really want to be a statue that will stand still, waiting for others to shape me the way they want?
Well, my answer is no – I don’t want you to come back anymore as I don’t want you to be in my life if you have any intention of leaving.
I don’t want to hear excuses anymore. I’m sick of listening to them and waiting for new ones to appear.
If you weren’t ready to love me before, how could you be ready to love me now? I didn’t change much and I doubt that you did either.
You only want to come back because you see me as a step along the way.
I guess that you will leave me again as we are not destined to be with each other. If we were, you wouldn’t have left me the first time.
I want you to stay in my past. Don’t look for a way to come to the present as I don’t want to see you here.
If you were willing to be there, you would never have left me.
If you truly loved me, you would never leave me...
Don’t say that you won’t go away this time as I know that you will.
People don’t change that easily and if you left me once, you will leave me again and again. Your promises don’t mean a thing anymore!
You are not used to fighting through the bad times. You are here while the sun is shining but when it starts raining, you will be long gone.
I don’t want you to come back, I want you to never leave.
To stick through the good and the bad, to hold me in your arms when I’m falling apart, to fight together with me.
I know that things can get tough and that I can be hard to love, but I don’t want you to leave every time we run into an obstacle.
My wish is to find a man who will be there no matter what. He won’t leave me when he gets scared of our future.
Instead, he will stay and hold my hand because I will be scared too.
He won’t leave me when my emotions become too much for him. Instead, he will cherish them and show me that he has them too.
I don’t want you – the one who comes and goes as he likes because he is afraid to give himself fully into something. He’s not my type, I finally realize that.
Instead, I want the one who will stay because he wants to. He will see me at my worst but he will decide that I am worth every second of his time.
My love and support will be appreciated as he will notice the effort I’m putting into the relationship to make it work.
I won’t have to stop him at the door, asking him where he is going, as I am afraid that he won’t return. The right one will never let me feel that way.
I will know that he won’t leave when it gets hard as he loves me enough to fight against the world with me. He will not be scared; he will not be in fear.
I don’t want you to come back, I want you to never leave…
Finally, I have realized that you were never supposed to stay. I was too much for your shallow perception.
You could never commit to me because you were afraid.
So, this one is for you and all the people before you who kept coming and going.
You don’t deserve me and I don’t want you to come back into my life anymore!
I don’t have the energy to build things from scratch when you once again decide that it’s time to leave.
And then, just when I have finished constructing myself from all of the pieces you left behind, you decide to enter my life once again and destroy my sandcastle once more.
I don’t want you to come back anymore as you are not worth my effort. If you were, you never would have left.
You knew my story and the battles I went through. Still, you decided that you would hurt me like everyone else before you did.
Thank you for trying, but I won’t welcome you inside anymore.
The door of my heart is open only to those who will be there for me, no matter what I am going through.
When I find the one who deserves me, I will give him my whole self, sticking with him through good and bad.
Because of that, I don’t want you to come back. Don’t turn around, checking if I am looking at you. I am not because I don’t need you in my life anymore.
The time has come for me to finally realize my worth. I promise that I will fill my life only with those who want to stay.
You made your choice and I appreciate that. It only made it easier to see who is willing to stay and who will be running away at the first drop of rain.
You’ve failed the test, so please don’t come back anymore.