Finding strength is quite hard when you doubt yourself and everything you do.
Finding strength is like looking for a needle in a haystack, a small thing in a huge mess.
Your strength is there, you just have to work on finding it and keeping it close to yourself for safekeeping, for whenever you need it again.
Your strength has been taken away from you by a man who isn’t able to see your worth.
He turned you against yourself and everything you knew before him. Don’t let him have that power over you.
You see, people who are very insecure tend to take advantage of anyone remotely in love with their life so that they can thrive on the fact that they made them miserable; just as much as they are.
A man inferior to you might try to bring you down, take away your authenticity and pretend like you were the one to give it to him willingly.
What he doesn’t know is that you love him unconditionally.
You never see his faults, only the good sides of him. You see how sweet he can be.
He has shown you that he can be loving and caring at times, but never too often, like he would spoil you if he did it too much.
What is wrong with spoiling someone you love?
What he does is make you believe that what he gives you is just enough to keep you in his grasp so that he doesn’t have to fight for you too much.
More often than not, he leaves you yearning for more, he leaves you yearning for his touch and a nice word.
He will kiss you to initiate something more, only to get aggressive whenever you ask for something as trivial as a hug.
There is no way for you to know what his mood is at any given moment.
One day, he will be all over you, showering you with all of his attention because it suits him that way, and the next, he will be as cold as ice.
His games are too much to keep your heart in one piece and he doesn’t even see how those bad days are breaking you apart.
You pretend that you are fine. Why? Because it is easier like that. It is easier to believe that the times he is nice toward you is how he really feels.
You make excuses for him on a daily basis, try to convince yourself that this is what being in love feels like, but it’s not.
Stop it right now and look around yourself. Do you really believe that he can see your actual worth?
All of those times he tells you that he is too busy to spend time with you just to hang out with his friends again show that he can’t.
All of the times he says that you are too clingy, too opinionated, or that you talk too much show that he only wants to belittle you.
Don’t let yourself fall into the trap of believing that this is what actual love should feel like.
True and unconditional love doesn’t make you doubt who you are or what you want in your life.
True love empowers you and motivates you to continue being yourself, because you are more than enough.
You are extraordinary!
Even in the darkest times, when he leaves you alone to fend for yourself, he tells you to take care of yourself because he doesn’t want that burden on him.
He makes you believe that you are exactly that; a burden.
He doesn’t see the way your skin tingles under his touch or the way you look at him with the utmost adoration.
Whether he chooses to ignore those signs of your love on purpose or not, it doesn’t change the fact that he is blind to what he is doing to you.
He doesn’t see the way your eyes tear up when he raises his voice at you or the way you hug your knees to your chest in the darkness of your room because he can’t be bothered to stay any longer.
He might make you feel like that but what he doesn’t know is that there is someone out there who knows how to treat you right.
Someone out there is more than capable of treating you like the queen you are.
Don’t convince yourself that no one else is going to love you more than he loves you right now, because that is not true.
You can and will be loved so much more than you are at the moment.
You will be loved by someone whose only intention in life is to show you how magical a relationship can actually be.
He will show you that there is so much more to love than crying and doubting yourself.
Do you know why? Because he will see your worth right away. He will know that you are more than good enough.
What happens when you’re in a relationship like that? You stop doubting your every move.
Maybe not right away, it might even take years for you to accommodate this new feeling of unconditional love, but it will happen.
There is someone out there for you who won’t let go of you, who won’t give up on you.
That someone will do anything he can to make you stay by his side and love him just as much, even though he knows it’s hard.
That’s what happens when you’re in a healthy relationship. You do not just leave when things get tough.
So don’t just sit around and wait for him to see your worth after so long. Don’t just wait for him to validate you. You don’t need him anymore.
What you need is a real man, one who is ready to fight for your heart and make you remember how worthy of love and affection you actually are.
Don’t settle for someone who can’t do that. You deserve more. You deserve everything your heart desires.
So be strong enough to leave a man who isn’t able to see your worth. Be strong enough to leave a man who treats you like you don’t deserve love.
Be strong enough to leave a man who doesn’t think that you’re enough.
Be strong enough to leave.