People usually say that it is not good to stay with those people who make you feel sad. They say you should go and settle down only with those who are worth your love. But my issue is that I don’t want to leave you. I don’t need anyone but you to settle down with. You are everything I ever wanted for myself and everything I have been waiting for my whole life. I want to make progress, but I only want to make it with you.
You and I have everything we need to experience something great, yet we don’t put an effort to live that at all. I feel like we are stuck at one place for a long period and we are spinning around with no solution. It surely doesn’t make us happy. I love my life and I want it to be amazing. I don’t want to regret any single day of it. Our relationship is turning into something that I might regret later. We are stuck, we are not moving on in any sense. I can’t let that happen.
I don’t love to create boundaries and I don’t love people who make false promises. There is only one solution for what we are going through. I want you to assure me in your love. I want you to show me that our relationship is valuable, that it’s worth putting effort in it. Either we are together in this, fighting for the same thing, or we are screwed up. I want a real man, someone who is willing to take care of me and love me. I need you to show me that our relationship is real. Because otherwise, I don’t want to regret wasting time of my only life.
Love shouldn’t be this complicated. No one tells you that love needs to be hard. It is only matter of people who are in love. Let’s make this easy by making one easy decision. I am letting you choose whether you want to be with me, or you want to mess around. Maybe you are not ready for commitment and that is fine. You will be one day. But if you want this as much as I do, then don’t play games. Forget about other girls, because I don’t want to play those nasty games. I am tired of them. If you want this, take my love as something big and have certain responsibilities. You have one choice, and it is up to you whether you want to like it or leave it.
We should not be with each other if we are not ready to approach our relationship seriously. I don’t want to question your love; I don’t want to doubt it. Long ago I made it clear to you, I was honest and very opened. You can be sure in my love because I never play games. You are the only one I wanted to have a relationship with and I don’t fear telling you that. So please, spare me your lies or false hopes that we can make this work. Just don’t waste our precious time. If we can’t have happy future together, then let’s move on. Don’t retract me over and over, because the truth is the least that I deserve.
You only need to tell me as an adult that you are not ready for this. This is something huge, I admit, so it is fine if you need more time. I know, though it is not easy, because you are aware of how much I want you. You can’t easily tell me that you are not ready to dedicate yourself to me.
But I promise that I will not make you problems. You know me better than anyone. I will be in pain, but I will get through that. It is only important that both of us will eventually be fine. You know and I know that I can’t and I don’t want to force you to love me. That so-called love would be a failure.
I just needed to tell you this because I am done with this. I don’t settle for this because I want more. You know me and you know that this is not enough for me. I need more love and no matter how hard I am trying, I can’t get it from you. You are not ready to love someone and to give an enormous amount of love. I just hope that you will understand me. I really need more and I can’t wait for you to give me more. If is so freaking painful, but I can’t wait for you anymore.
I was afraid of telling you this, but I really had to. I love you and I want you, but I also love my life and I don’t want to waste it. If we are something, then we should make it that way. I don’t want us to have half of each other’s love. If we are on the same side, then we will gladly be there for each other and we will plan the future for us. If you are not ready, then I forgive you. And I need you to forgive me. I want to go on without you. And my leaving is not making me a person who is not ready to struggle. God knows that I tried. I saved myself from you, and I saved you from something that you were obviously not ready for.