I know that you exist and that you are somewhere out there, no matter what people keep telling me. I know you are real and that I deserve you. I know that all of my heartbreaks and disappointments will be worth it once I meet you. And I know you are waiting for me, the same way I am waiting for you.
So, I am trying to be the best possible version of myself. I am trying to improve in every way. And I don’t think about my physical appearance here only. I am trying to be a successful woman in all fields. I want to be a woman worthy of your love and even more worthy of your respect and appreciation.
First of all, I want to be a complete person with high self-esteem. I want to move away from all of my insecurities caused by wrong people in my life. I don’t want you to feel like I need you to complete me. I want to be complete before you come into my life. I am trying hard to be an independent individual, happy and satisfied with my life in general before I meet you. I am not looking for you so you could fix me and heal me. I want to be emotionally stable before you get here.
I am also working really hard to have a successful career. I want to be financially independent, and stable. Let me say I am not looking for financial backup from anyone, including you. I don’t want you to feel like you have to provide for me and for our potential family. I want us to do it together and with joined forces.
But most importantly, I am trying hard to be a better person in general. I want to get rid of all the resentment and negativity from the past. I want to be a caring and a loving woman, and I think I am on a good path to becoming one. I want to stay a kind and sensitive person, with empathy for others and especially for you. I want to lose all of the bitterness in my life and don’t want to allow pessimistic and toxic people to influence me. I always want to be an optimistic and positive woman who looks forward to the future at all times. And most of all, I want to be opened to love.
Because this is the only way I can bring something positive in our relationship. This is the only way I can manage to be a woman who can love you unconditionally and who can be loved unconditionally. And it’s the only way for us to have a healthy and successful relationship.
This is the only way I can be the woman you choose.
I want you to really choose me. I don’t want you to be with me just because it’s time to settle down or because I am good on paper for you. I want to awaken true love in you. I want you to be knocked off your feet once you get to meet me. I don’t want to be someone suitable for you only because I am around. I don’t want you to be with me just for a while, because I am good for your ego or until someone better comes along. I want you to choose me forever, because you recognized me as your soulmate.
I want to make your life better. I want to be there for you, no matter what. I promise I won’t judge you and I’ll be there for you, whatever you do. I promise you’ll have my full support and that I’ll have your back. I’ll believe in you, even when you stop believing in yourself. I want you to be the best possible version of yourself, the same way I want it for myself.
But don’t think I will want to change you. Yes, I have some deal breakers, but I’ll do my best to embrace the person you are. I’ll accept you with all of your flaws and imperfections. I don’t expect you to be perfect and I want you to know I myself am far from perfection. I won’t try to change you so you can fit my imaginary standards. Instead, I’ll accept you for who you really are.
And I won’t try to control you. I will always respect your integrity and independence. I know you had a life before me and you’ll continue having it if it happens that the two of us split up. So, I’ll try not to be too needy and pushy. I won’t expect you to spend every moment of your free time with me. I won’t try to pull you away from your friends and family. Instead, I’ll respect your time with them and I’ll respect the time you need for yourself.
I’ll do my best to trust you. Yes, I have some trust issues that I carry from the past, but I’ll try hard not to allow them have an influence on us and on our relationship. So, I’ll trust you until you prove me differently. And I sincerely hope you won’t ever do that.
At the same time, I’ll try to be a woman worthy of your trust. I won’t play any mind games with you nor will I play hard to get. I won’t make you jealous without any reason. I’ll try to be very clear and honest about my feelings and won’t have trouble expressing them. Because I want you to know I am someone you will always be able to rely on and someone who won’t leave your side the moment things get rough.
You won’t have to deal with life problems on your own. From the moment you meet me, your problems will become mine as well. Whenever life knocks you down, I’ll be there to lift you back up. Whenever you think you are about to fall, I’ll be there to catch you.
I won’t be your lover only. I want to be your best friend and family member as well. I want to be your partner in every sense of that word. I want us to go through life shoulder by shoulder. I want us to be each other’s rocks and each other’s sanctuary. I want us to be equals in everything.
But, most of all, I want us to be happy. I want to be the woman who will be able to make you happy. I want to make you smile every day for the rest of our lives.
Know that I am someone who is capable of loving one person completely. I know how to be committed and fully dedicated to another person. The moment I fall in love with you, I am yours. But please don’t use that against me. Please do your best to match my effort and to love and respect me back.
Yes, sometimes I am hard to handle. Sometimes, I am the most difficult person alive. And I ask for a lot of in return. But, at the same time, I give so much.
So, choose me, pick me. I promise you I will be worth it.