I Was Too Good
No one ever said loving someone was easy. It takes a lot of time, and it takes sacrifices to make love work. It’s easy to love someone when they are good to you. To love someone who is always there for you no matter what. But love is not always beautiful, sometimes love can hurt you. Actually, it can hurt you so bad.
All of us need someone who is ready to be with us through bad times. We need someone who will kiss our tears away, not make us cry. We need someone who will understand our darkness, madness, and all those flaws we have. Someone who will decide to stay.
Life must get rough at some point, but even in that time, we need a person who will stop the rain, who will be our sun. We deserve someone who will listen, someone who will be there, someone who will not make jokes about our flaws. Actually, we need someone who will love us the way we are. And who will not try to change us.
But at one point in our life, we fall in love with the wrong one, so do I. I was in love with a bad guy. Who almost destroyed my life completely. It took me a lot of time to understand that not being enough for him was never my fault.
He wasn’t good for me, he was just using me. But in one moment, I realized that he and that kind of life are not what I want. So I chose myself, I chose to live my life again, to be happy.
Leaving him was a chance of a fresh start.
Now I know that I was good enough, and I was too good for him. It took me awhile to love myself again, to respect my values. But I did it. I love myself and my life. I’m happy without you, and I thought I would not be.
I just want to tell you, and to tell him that I forgive. Not because he deserves it, because I’m a good person, I deserve happiness. Forgiveness will heal my heart, and it allows me to heal from my past.