My man is really a good man, and very generous. He’s patient with me. When I’m with him I feel safe. I love him, and he loves me. But lately I have feeling that in our relationship something is missing, and I don’t know what. I have feeling that we are losing our love. Actually, there’s a lot of different feelings, but I don’t know what is the problem. Am I a problem? Or is he a problem?
I’m not smart enough to figure this out. I love him, I really do.But I’m afraid that our relationship has become a habit. When we are together everything seems normal, but when we are separated, things get strange. To be honest, I’m afraid of this feeling.
And I feel that he has the same feeling. I can’t figure out what the hell happened to us? Where is our love? What is wrong with our relationship? So many questions, and there’s no answer.
Things get worse and worse. We very often argue about some stupid shit, and we blame each other. I want him to apologize, and he wants me to apologize. There is no sense. I’m confused.
Every day I’m asking myself how to be happy again with him. I know how I’m lucky to have him by my side, but I have feeling that I’m losing my mind. I should be happy, I need to be happy.
And I really don’t want to hurt him, because he is really, really good guy. He’s perfect, he is everything I ever wanted.
I don’t want to be selfish, I don’t want to think just about my feelings. But whenever we try to talk about feelings, and our relationship, things get worse. All this is very exhausting. I’m tired. Sometimes I want to leave, but I can’t. And I’m giving my best to make this relationship work, but it’s all in vain. We need to find the way to fix us.
Maybe it’s time to end this relationship before we hurt each other. But, I just can’t. I don’t want to leave him. And he doesn’t want to leave me. But both of us see that things are not good. Maybe this is just a passing crisis, but maybe this is the beginning of the end. And I’m afraid of losing him. I’m afraid of everything that’s coming.