You are my better half, and I’ll never let you go again
You are my better half and I’ll never let you go again.
To my man,
We have been together for a long time now. Four years next month. I think that’s pretty amazing. We’re still only young, and yet you’ve taken up such an enormous part of my life. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
When we met, I didn’t know you’d be the man I fell in love with. I used to watch the way you looked at me, and know you felt something. You laughed at all my jokes before anyone else did. You smiled at me when I spoke to you. And you listened long after other people had turned away. And you watched me break one night, and you were there to put me back together.
We didn’t know we were soulmates back then. I think we were both looking for something casual. But now I know you are my better half, I’ll never let you go. I came close to it once. I almost broke everything we built together and lost you forever. When I look back on that time, I cringe. I know the decisions I made were erratic, stupid, out of character. I think that’s why you gave me a second chance. You knew I wasn’t myself back then. That’s what I love about you. You manage to see the good in me, even when it seems like it’s buried deep.
We mended our hearts together. We went traveling together. And we had fights and made up again all in the space of a few minutes. We have never been able to stand the time apart. We know from making long distance work for us that it can be impossible at times. We’ve spent weeks on opposite sides of the country. But you were always willing to make it work. I thought when we parted at first that you’d realize you were too good for me. You could have any girl you wanted, so I always assumed you’d use that to your advantage. But you’ve never strayed. You’ve only ever had eyes for me, in a way my exes never did. You love me the way I am, and I can only pray it stays that way.
I know I can be difficult sometimes. I know I am a pain in the arse when I want to be. And I know that I’ve made a lot of bad decisions that most people would condemn me for. But I do appreciate you, I swear. I tell you every day, but I’m not sure if you always realize how much I mean it. I think of you all the time. And I plan my life around you. I pray for a few more minutes with you each time it’s time for me to leave you.
It hurts when we’re apart. I used to think I knew what love was, but then I met you and realized I had never had the real thing. I’d never had something so beautiful, and something that could destroy me if it was taken away from me. But for the first time in my life, I’m not worried that my partner will leave me. I think we have something amazing, and I know you feel the same, even if you don’t express yourself as freely as I do. I know you want the same things as me, and that you see the future ahead of us as clearly as I do. And I hope when you read this you’ll feel how much I care for you. I love you, and I’ll never love another again.
All my love, your devoted girlfriend.