Narcissistic abuse is a really bad thing. And recovery from narcissist abuse is just like any other form of mental or physical recovery – it takes time, work, and determination for the wounds to heal.
When I break up with you, I thought that my unpleasant ride will end, but I was wrong.
Leaving you was no doubt a struggle in itself, but staying away from you is just as difficult. Like with any relationship, I experienced a sense of loss and even one of grief.
Despite everything you put me through, I couldn’t simply flick a switch and turn off the feelings for you.
My heart constantly was pulling me back. While my rational side was reminding me of all bad times that I had with you.
The path wasn’t always a straight one. I was taking forward steps, backward steps, and even sideways steps. But every day I was reminding myself that every step is a part of the journey and that isn’t either a waste or a failure.
I was focused on my present and my future, not on the past. But also, I needed to remind myself every day that I will succeed.
I needed to find a sense of self-worth. I realized that I am a loveable person who deserves the care, affection, and respect.
I put self-care as a priority.
The most important thing is that I had the full support of my friends and family. Without them, I wouldn’t succeed.
My recovery took a long time, but I made it.
And this will never be a defeat for me, just a lesson.