You don’t love me just if you say I love you. It’s not enough to know deep down that you love me.
You love me by being there for me. You love me by making effort to be in my life, to know me, to know my scars, to know who I love, what are my dreams.
I need you to show me that you care. I need you to give me your time, your understanding. You need to be my rock when I fall on hard times. You don’t leave when things get hard.
Your job was to teach me how not to be afraid. Your job was to teach me to open to all that life has to offer.
It takes me so long to trust someone. I don’t take anything with passion and excitement. Because I’m afraid. I’m afraid of anyone’s sympathy, the one with abandonment issues, the one who keeps me at a distance. I keep fighting every time someone tries to get close to me. Your job was to teach me that people don’t leave when things get hard. Your job was to teach me that people fight for what’s worth fighting for.
It was your job to be the one person who would never hurt me.
We should have more than small moments, we shouldn’t have a handful moments. As a mom, it was your job to be there for me. It was your job to teach me how stupid boys are, to be there for my first heartbreak and tell me everything will be okay.
You can’t say everything is okay. Because it is not. You should be there to take a picture of me before my first prom, to be there when my dreams come true, to tell me I’m beautiful when I don’t feel like it. To make me your the most special girl.
You have to earn my trust if you want me back. Because you messed up. Nothing comes back simply. When you mess up, you have to make an effort for it, fight for it.
Circumstances weren’t an excuse to leave. They are not an excuse to stop fighting for me. They are not an excuse for not making an effort to be there for me.
I need you to give me your time and your love. I need you to teach me something new, I want you to hear what makes you, you. Change my view, make me believe that lasting relationships exist, teach me how to be a better person.
You should put your daughter first, inspire her to reach for more, love her. You shouldn’t leave because it got too hard. Love that every daughter needs to have shouldn’t be ruined by any circumstance. You should be here.