I’m scared of everything that is coming. I’m scared of my feeling. I’m afraid of giving everything and ending up with nothing.

 

I’m scared of everything because of you. Once I thought I found a love, and I took that risk. I didn’t end up in my happily ever after, I ended up broken and in tears.

 

Now I push everyone away because, to be honest, I don’t know what I want now. I don’t even recognize myself. You destroyed us. You destroyed me.

 

I push away every guy because I think I don’t deserve them. They are too wonderful in every way I would just damage them.

 

I’m just scared that I’m not good enough.

 

For you, I was never good enough. You filled up my head with that shit that I’m not good enough, and I just can’t help myself.

 

I would never make them happy. I don’t know how to make myself happy, how could I make them happy?

 

They are just better persons without me, I know it.

 

I’m terrified that my love isn’t enough to keep us together.

 

I just need someone who is ready to fix everything you screwed up.

 

I need someone who will teach me again how to love life, how to love myself again.

 

I know that someone is out there who is ready to deal with all my darkness and my madness.

 

I will show you that you didn’t destroy me completely. You wounded me, but I know that one day I will be fine.

 

I’m going to be fine.

 

You don’t need better revenge than that.

 

 

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