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I’m Just Scared That I’m Not Good Enough

Written by Peggysue

I’m scared of everything that is coming. I’m scared of my feeling. I’m afraid of giving everything and ending up with nothing.

 

I’m scared of everything because of you. Once I thought I found a love, and I took that risk. I didn’t end up in my happily ever after, I ended up broken and in tears.

 

Now I push everyone away because, to be honest, I don’t know what I want now. I don’t even recognize myself. You destroyed us. You destroyed me.

 

I push away every guy because I think I don’t deserve them. They are too wonderful in every way I would just damage them.

 

I’m just scared that I’m not good enough.

 

For you, I was never good enough. You filled up my head with that shit that I’m not good enough, and I just can’t help myself.

 

I would never make them happy. I don’t know how to make myself happy, how could I make them happy?

 

They are just better persons without me, I know it.

 

I’m terrified that my love isn’t enough to keep us together.

 

I just need someone who is ready to fix everything you screwed up.

 

I need someone who will teach me again how to love life, how to love myself again.

 

I know that someone is out there who is ready to deal with all my darkness and my madness.

 

I will show you that you didn’t destroy me completely. You wounded me, but I know that one day I will be fine.

 

I’m going to be fine.

 

You don’t need better revenge than that.

 

 

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